I am His
This morning at church the pastor talked about how we are adopted by God into His family. Every Christian has an adoption story to tell, and lately I’ve had this feeling that I need to share my adoption story, so here it goes. I grew up going to church every Sunday and Wednesday, and I accepted Christ into my life and got baptized in 2nd or 3rd grade. Then I continued living. Nothing changed. In 7th grade during dnow something began to click. Life wasn’t about me, which wasn’t exactly something I actually believed before then, but I didn’t live for anything meaningful. I started to view life in a bigger picture kind of perspective and I knew that I needed to put my identity in something rather than just myself. This, however, was dangerous without knowing how to put my all into something. I thought that I was being a great Christian. I tried not to sin, and I had some awesome fellow Christian friends. I also hung out with some other non-Christians, but my goal in that was to share God with them, or to be honest I kind of tried to shove the Gospel down their throats. I thought I had it all, and boy did that change fast. Beginning in 9th grade I saw my friendships falling apart. Nothing was going my way. I was getting left out, my friends didn’t run up to me and hug me like they did to their other friends, and I didn’t know what to do. The next year totally changed my life. My 10th grade year was horrific, but most people didn’t know that. My friends had changed interests, that’s all I’ll say on here, but it seemed like they no longer wanted to be my friends, and my entire world fell apart. I cried almost daily. I didn’t know what to do. There were so many birthday parties that I wasn’t invited to, which for my 10th grade self I cared a whole lot about that. I went to my mom for everything, but even then she couldn’t completely console me. I wanted to go to my discipleship group and talk to them about it, which if any of y’all are reading this please forgive me but this is how I felt almost three years ago, but they were the ones who were making my life miserable. I had absolutely no idea where to go or who to go to. Then something hit me, and it hit me really hard. I had an idol: my friends. This terrified me because I always thought that that sin wasn’t something I would ever have to deal with. “Thou shalt make no idols before me,” yeah I’ve got that, I’m not about to worship anything or anyone else besides God. But I was wrong, I had an idol. Then I finally figured out who to go to for comfort and advice. God was there for me. He helped me forgive those people who had hurt me, which was a really big thing for me to get over because they had hurt me a lot. I still struggle with having faith in other people and trusting them because of this experience, but God has been slowly taking those walls down and rebuilding me. I refocused my life on Him rather than my friends. God became my one and only god. I do believe that I became a saved child of God back when I asked Him into my life 10 years ago, but I still held on to my sins without realizing it, but now I truly know God and follow Him every day of my life. No, I’m not perfect, I can’t be perfect, but I have been adopted by God through Jesus’ death and resurrection. I don’t deserve it at all though. I used to be a slave to sin, but now I am a child of the King, and that fact is amazing to think about. And now that I am about to move to Auburn in a little under two weeks I’ve been thinking back on my life. Every person that has been in my life, no matter if they were in my life for a day or for 13+ years, has changed and shaped my life into the person I am today. I might have been mean or rude to you, I might not have liked you, or I might have loved you, but if I ever acted non-Christ like to you, and I know I have to so many people, I apologize with complete sincerity to you. I’m a sinner and I have made some rough mistakes in my life, but I’m not afraid to admit that. But now, I thank everyone for contributing to my life, y’all are awesome even if I didn’t make you feel that way when you were in my life. I used to wish that certain things in my life could have not happened, like my heartache with my friends, but looking back, I know that without those experiences I would not be as in love with Christ as I am now. Everything happened for a reason, and each time they pointed me toward God. I have changed so much in the past few years, and I pray that God will continue to transform my life everyday. A few months ago I read a tweet or something that said something to the effect of “If you look at your life from one year ago and aren’t ashamed of who you were, then you haven’t grown any” and I completely believe that. When I look at my life one year ago I am embarrassed of how I acted, actually when I look at my life just a few months ago I am embarrassed of how I acted. That’s how life is though, we change and we learn, just like I said in my last blog post. But the thing is, it doesn’t matter who I was yesterday, it only matters who I am today at this moment. Right now in this moment I am an adopted child of God, and because that’s what I am now, that can never and will never change. Once adopted by Christ, we will forever be His. And since we are adopted by Him, our lives will change. It is impossible to truly be His child if we continue to live happily and contently in sin. As His child we will want to change and be more like Him. God detests sin and so should we, and that’s what it looks like to be in love with Christ.
“Therefore be imitators of God, as beloved children. And walk in love, as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us, a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God” Ephesians 5:1-2 ESV
“For at one time you were darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Walk as children of light” Ephesians 5:8 ESV
So that’s my adoption story, and God continues to update it everyday. I still sin, and I try to change that, but the thing is since I’m human I will never completely stop sinning until I take my last breath, but God forgives me of my sins every single day. I’m so excited to see where God takes me as I continue to live in His light and His plan for my life. So last thing, as Christians we are called to share our story with others, not to brag but to help encourage others and show the God’s power, so I challenge everyone who’s reading this to share your story with someone. Ask God to bring someone into your life who you can share your testimony with, and He’ll do it. He is all powerful and He will never fail, so as I pray for God to send someone to me, or maybe even this blog, I ask that you’ll do the same.